It’s Saturday, I’m driving in my car, enjoying the sun shine, feeling grateful for just being alive, when I see one of my neighbors standing with a lady friend in front of his house. I see him, he looks at me and whoosh I have this feeling of incredible longing. So I go on driving, run my errands observing “longing.” Longing can be very painful ….and it’s intense, so I am thinking “what do I do?”
I mean I am trying to live an authentic life. Should I visit him? So no, I go home to Michael and tell him……by the way, Michael and I have an agreement to tell each other everything, even if its difficult to say. And no, it’s not fun. I suspect none of us like it because we think “I won’t look good” and I feel embarrassed, of course.
But what’s also true is that Michael is my friend as well as my husband. He knows I will never hurt him, and just want to know what’s really going on with me. I also know he will not freak out when I tell him things (this is, of course, important). He just sits there, listening patiently. He knows he’s a great guy, loves me, and doesn’t question how I feel, except to help me past it. I don’t know how he got that – maybe from his beloved grandmother Mimi).
Anyhow, so I tell him that I have this longing for this neighbor guy and he does the Logical Soul® muscle testing while having me make statements like “these are my feelings” or “someone else’s feelings,” etc. And guess what? These feelings are NOT mine – they belonged to my neighbor’s lady friend who stood with him. They were her longings for him.
The moment I got that these intense feeling of longing did not originate from me, but were just “pick up feelings,” that intensity was suddenly gone……poof! Do you know what I would have done 30 years earlier in my life, not knowing what I know now, but living in the space of “being real”? I would have packed my suit case and left my husband. I guess that’s why we were blessed to discover the Logical Soul® . . . to stay sane and help others be the same!
Can you imagine how the world would be with so much LESS DRAMA in it? It staggers the imagination!